Growth

“Look outside and you will see yourself. Look inside and you will find yourself.” — Drew Gerald

Hi Friend! I missed you!

You know that quote that says “Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations”? I have been bumpin’ and ridin’ on those roads.

Here’s a little back story:

When I was a child. I always wanted my space, quiet, serene – Me time. Just me. I hate the noise of any kind. But, everyone was in my breathing space.

As an adult, I moved to study for my Master’s in another city – but still didn’t get my space.

I got a job later and moved in with my sister. I love my family but I knew I felt empty and alone most times. The surroundings where I lived were foreign to me. I needed to disassociate myself soon enough or I might lose myself.

Finding yourself is the basis for any improvement. You need to know where you are. Who you are. What you are. How you are. And most importantly, Why you are.

For as long as I can remember, I have been yearning for my own little corner. A space where I can make my own memories, easy relaxation, concentration, yada yada yada

You go to work in individual cubicles, make friends with a group of people, and hang out with family (which by the way I do not often do – saying this for most of my friends here who do *wink *wink) You would always need some alone time to yourself.

A comfy work space, a chair that soothes your back so you don’t slouch or break your neck, a quiet, clean apartment where humans don’t touch the wall or prop their dirty feet up on your sofa – It’s the little things. I was not really asking for much – oh and to decorate it to my taste. That was the best part.

Little cute fake plants so I don’t kill them as I would genuinely forget to water them. Water and light are essential in this part of the country – so you don’t wake up looking homeless.

I needed bathrooms that would not be shared, a kitchen large enough for me to breeze in and out of – knowing fully well I might never cook there but probably important I keep up with the necessary kitchen items so I don’t starve to death.

It took me 5 Months to get the apartment I needed. Terrible terrible experiences – but I found one. Turns out I was gonna end up in my own little corner after all.

My hiatus was also compulsory as personally, I needed a break. But, I’m happy for growth, consistency and personal space. Now I can watch Netflix without interruptions.

I hope you take some time off to self-access, recharge and change any part of your life that needs re-evaluation. Growth is optional but change is inevitable.

Also sending a warm hug to a thoughtful soul who asked why I stopped writing. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for taking the time.

Write to you soon.